sham

I spend the whole day TRYING to figure out how can I get this application to the side of the blog. But I gave up in the end, this is what I decided to do. =D

Its been a week since 52hrs of LIVE! OPS camp but I'm still having MAYFLOWER hangover.
All thanks to 3 Endeavour! They're simply the best bunch of troopers I've ever met, their enthusiasm, team spirit, team bonding and the kind of energy level and change they shown over the past 3 days in the camp really overwhelm me.

It just reaffirm me why I should coach more than APD-in. The kind of satisfaction and changed you see is totally awesome. 3Endeavour memories will stay with me for life, that is for sure.

I totally can't wait for the booster session! I miss you people 3E !!!

I should disappear...

You might have to wait a long time, sometimes years. But people will show you their good side. Just keep waiting, no matter how long it takes. Everybody has a good side. Just keep waiting, it will come out.

Its too scary, the environment, the words, the action, the behavior and the people.
I want to be safe,
I want to go home.
Let me be...

Hmm...

So much for emphasizing and telling someone we want the best for them, we want them to be happy so that we will be happy. But we often missed out on the secret of happiness.

Perhaps the secret of happiness is the determination to be happy always, rather than wait for outer circumstances to make one =)





So lets just be happy.

Where true happiness comes from? I don't know, but I do know where it isn't to be found. And I do have an inkling where it might be. Let's take a scenario when we go out to buy a new dress/shoes/handphone/computer/clothes/whatever turns you on. You have the money and you buy whatever it is, and it makes you feel incredible/happy/excited/fantastic. Now imagine whoever it was who made/design/created whatever it is you bought. When they made it, where did they fit that feeling in? Perhaps we are the ones that brought that feeling with us.

When we have a crush on somebody, like somebody or fall in love with somebody. It is again incredible. We feel excited, fantastic, happy. We go to meet our new love and when we see them, that feeling spills out in all sorts of direction. We feel amazing because we are with them and they are generating that feeling. Right? Perhaps. In fact, we are the one who brought it all with us. We may look to them to trigger it but even if they go to the other end of the world, we'll still have that feeling and they're nowhere near us.

But no amount of falling in love or buying new stuff is going to keep that feeling going for longer than it takes us to get over it. The secret is knowing how to trigger it without anyone else or anything else being involved.

I don't know. I'm still finding but one thing for sure, it's the one place we'd never think of looking, right inside us.

sham wants to be happy!!! =)

Presenting to you.. the first ever AK Dikir Barat performance
Starring...
From the left: Jace, Alvin, Sham, Dharyl, Azree, Melissa
Front: Ridz

Sometimes we have to just walk away. We all hate to fail, hate to give up, hate to give in, hate to get rejected. We love the challenge of life and want to keep on until whatever we are trying to "win" has been overcome, vanquished, beaten, won. But sometimes it just ain't going to happen and we need to learn to recgonize those moments, learn how to philosophically shrug and walk away with our pride intact and our dignity high.

Sometimes we really want to do something, but to some people it is unrealistic. So instead of knocking ourselves out, cultivate the art of knowing when to walk away and we'll find it a lot less stressful.

If a relationship is coming to its end - ended, instead of playing out long and complicated - and potentially hurtful - end games, learn the art of walking away. If it's dead, leave it. We're not a coward just because we walk away from it - it's here because it is for us, to protect us, to nurture us. This is nothing to do with "them" but all to do with us. If it's dead, don't go digging it up every five minutes to check if there's a pulse. It's dead, walk away.

I'm still learning, letting go and walking away from certain stuffs. It's not bad after all because by doing so, it means I''m exercising control and good decision making powers - I am making my choice rather than letting the emotions, situation take control of me. I believe that is what it means by "E + R = O".